About Courage

Courage is not fluffy.  I'm learning that if you choose to have courage in life,  you will find yourself in situations that are truly shitty.  Perhaps the things you dreaded, the worst case scenario, will come true.  But when you get to that point, you may realize that your cells stay intact, the involuntary nature of breathing is in your favor and there is more light than you imagined there would be when you thought it would be all that bad.  This is when you find yourself in a dance with the devastation of failure and the awareness of being completely alive.  You're caught off guard by the beautiful moments you never saw coming, filled with people and things you never knew you could love.   Eventually, what you hoped courage would lead you to, your dreams, find their way to you, all at once or trickling down in droplets, and you meet yourself.  The fully You who no longer pretends.  No longer needs to.